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Thursday, 17 May 2018

My wife's first overseas trip.

This is a work of fiction. 

Follow up adventure for James and Shirley ( My wife secretly became a social escort ) 

Materials edited and compiled off the net. 

If you are looking for a good tease, this should be your cup of tea

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Ever since my wife Shirley came clean about secretly being a social escort on the side , my life has undergone a 360 degree change.


Everything has changed.




The dynamics of my relationship with my wife has changed.

The way I look at her has changed.

The way I lust for her has changed as well.



Honestly if I were to look at this from a 3rd person perspective, the first thought that comes to my mind would be that our marriage is over. How can one possibly live with the idea that his wife is sleeping around with other men ?

It’s a bizarre feeling to know her body has been shared and enjoyed by others but her heart remains yours.



How do you explain something like that ?

That she will never love another man other than you, that she will dedicate her entire life to you till death separates us.

It made me fall even deeper for her.


Our connection as a couple grew beyond our wildest imagination. Our sex life reached another level I never thought possible.



The intensity of our orgasm went up several notched and the satisfying feeling lingered on long after our big O.

It was something we never felt before.


We tried to analyse what caused this change. Was it purely because of Shirley’s deeds ?


That she let so many other men fuck her and she enjoyed most of the encounter. Now that she’s been offered a permanent job as the personal assistant to her so call sugar daddy, she will be exclusive only to him.

His fuck toy.


We came to the conclusion that it was because she was honest with me. She came clean.

Shirley promised to tell me everything. Everything.



She was descriptive with her words. I could picture myself at the scene when Shirley tells me about how she was used.

How her body was desecrated like a whore in order to give pleasure to the men that pays her. My cock throbbed hard throughout and I hung onto every word.


She could hardly get through more than 30 mintues of talking before I found myself throbbing hard enough to fuck her again and my god was she wet.



I felt like it was back to our dating days.

I would look forward coming home from work to listen to her tell me what happened in her office that day.



She would sometimes share snippets of what happened via messages or image.

I would get a hard on in office just reading them.


It could be as simple as a grab of her breast by her boss when she was in the pantry.


Or it could be a rub of his groin against her buttocks as she walks past him.



Or it could be a blowjob in his car when they were out for meetings.

Shirley would tell me everything.



My wife was paid well and her boss paid for a comprehensive health checkup for her too. The moment she was cleared of any sexual related illness and was certified to be in the pink of health, she went on the pill.



Yes. The pill.

She came home with a bag of prescription and showed it to me.


That look on her face was priceless when she told me I can cum inside her as many times as I want is impossible to describe.

We fucked like rabbits that evening and she moaned like a slut in heat.



I asked her to imagine I’m her boss and she’s being used like a whore.

Shirley got into her character really fast and I could tell she was really aroused and high when she was playing that role.


James : moan louder…. I want to hear you moan…. Moan in the sluttiest voice you can manage.

Shirely : ernhhhhhh….!!.  .. egnnnnn.. erngh… ernghh… fuck me…. Erngh.. yes.. yes… erghh… god…. Ernghh.. fuck me… fuck me harder…



James : No… not dirty enough… not slutty enough… you can do better… ernghh… arrnghh…

I pressed her wrist onto the sofa as I looked into her eyes.

Shirley looked right back at me as she gasped in a large breath of air.
She started to moan rapidly in tandem with my thrusting.

A sudden hard thrust would throw her off rythem as she tried to moan like a slut expected of her.


Her lips moved fast, spitting foul words that would belong right in the dirtiest fuck house you can imagine in the streets of Geylang.

Her words were punctuated with moans and I could really feel my wife’s desire to be used.


It’s like I’ve been fucking a caterpillar my entire marriage life and now that she has come out of her cocoon. 

I’m fucking a version of Shirley that has undergone metamorphosis. 


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Friday, 11 May 2018

My wife secretly became a social escort

***This is a work of fiction***

Materials used are a combination of albums i bought & from the web.
Please do not read this if you are uncomfortable with works associated with wife sharing and slut shaming and extreme wife manipulation. 

Girl in the shoot is 25 years old. Pictures taken by her boyfriend. They requested to use her real name ' Shirley' for this story. So..... if you happen to know any Shirley at work..... take a closer look at her body .... you never know..... you never know..... 

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What if your wife decides to do something behind your back ? 

What if the only way to find out what it is, is to read it online after it has been done ? 

James realised his wife Shirley secretly started taking clients online via a popular sex forum. This is a betrayal that comes with graphic details. From wasapp messages to the detailed review given by clients after they fucked his wife. 

Afraid and unsure of what to do, James could only follow and slowly uncover how his wife is slowly being turned into a slut by reading the reviews and the photoshoot albums done by clients.

Imagine having to face your wife everyday after work knowing what she does behind your back. Imagine being able to read what was done to her without her knowledge. 

How far would she go as she seeks not money but self validation ? Pictures ? Photoshoots ? Reviews ? 

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Wive will not show their husband their true inner slut. They will only show it to someone they don't know, and hopefully never meet again....... 

Or at least if she thinks they will never meet again....... 


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I used to think I’m the luckiest man alive.

I have a really hot and beautiful wife. She’s caring and sweet not to forget she’s capable at work too.
Shirley made me the envy of all my friends when I introduced her to them during a gathering when we were dating. Everyone of them were stealing glances at her long legs and shapely body.

There is no airs about her and aside from the fact that she cannot cook, there is really nothing negative about her as a whole.

Personally I don’t mind if she cannot cook, I mean come on. In this day and age, who really cares if their wife can cook or not ?



Shirley and I got married in 2016 and shortly after, we moved into a 3 room flat in Sengkang.

Life was good, both of us have a good job, our pay is decent and we travel twice a year. We’re both still young, Shirley was only 25 when she married me, I’m 2 years older and we both plan to have kids before she hits 30. There’s still a bit of time for us to enjoy the honeymoon period of our marriage.

However, late last year sometime in December 2017, things started to go south really quickly.

The company Shirley worked for was acquired by a foreign company and her role was made redundant. There’s really no reason to panic since she’s still young and there are plenty of opportunities around, I mean so what if you are retrenched ?

Just send your resume and look for another job.



You’re local, you have a degree, you’re only in your mid twenties, there’s tons of opportunities out there.

However, Shirley did not take the news lightly. In fact, she was so affected by it that I suspected she sank into a bit of a depression.

It wasn’t so much about the money, it was more of a hit to her self-esteem. She doesn’t want to talk about it but as her husband, I can tell.

She’s much more affected by it than she let on.

Shirley might look perfect and strong on the outside but I know she’s a really fragile woman deep down.



I thought she would get better after a while.

You know, let her calm down for a bit, take a good break before resuming her job search. She took a 2 month break while sending out resumes.


This is the part where I don’t understand.

I have access to her email, something that she doesn’t know about.

I’ve checked the inbox and there are no less than a dozen replies from companies asking her down for interviews.
So you can imagine the shock I received when Shirley told me that after sending out so many resumes, she had no reply.


Not a single one.

James : What ?? are you serious ??

Shirley : yes…. It’s…. market is not exactly good…. I mean…. I’m retrenched…. How would people look at me….. probably think I’m not good enough to keep …

James ; Dear… what’s wrong with you ?? are you ok ?? ….



She just smiled and hugged onto me.

Shirely : I’m ok… I’m sure someone will ask me down for interview soon.


It was then I knew her state of mind is really messed up.


She’s obviously lying when she says she has not gotten any reply from the companies. There are so many to pick from including civil service jobs.

I knew if I told her I saw her mail, it would only make things worst.


I told myself to give her space, let her calm down properly.

Perhaps she would get better in due course.



I’m not worried about the household finances, we’re pretty thrifty and prudent. With my income, I should be able to comfortably support both of us for a while if we cut back on the holidays.


Shirley spent most of the time at home surfing the net, watching Korean dramas.

By Feburary 2018, I could tell she was feeling better.



She told me she’s heading down for a interview one evening and it was the best news I’ve heard in a long time.

James ; That’s great news…. !!... what company is it ? what do they do ??

Shirley : Shipping and logistics…. They needed someone to take over operations…..

James : Sounds interesting…. Well… best of luck !!!


I was eager to get home after work that day to hear all about my wife’s interview.

I text her in the afternoon but she did not reply me. Perhaps she was asked to start work immediately ?

I don’t know.

Anyway I got home at 7pm and she was nowhere to be seen.


I tried calling her but there was no answer.



Shirley finally called me at 9.30pm to say that she is on her way back


Shirley : Sorry… they wanted me to start on the spot and there was quite a bit of things to do…..

James : It’s ok… .. have you had your dinner ?


My wife said she will just grab something from the coffee shop across the road before coming up.

I was eager to talk to her about her new work she rushed into the shower immediately after coming up.

James ; Eh…. Stomach ache is it ?


Shirley : No la… just want to shower.

I would not have thought much about it but I notice something different.

My wife never brings her phone into the bathroom and she does not have the bait of doing so.

I watched Shirley enter the bathroom only to come back out and grab her phone before shutting the door.


Perhaps it was just me thinking too much but something just doesn’t feel right.


After her shower, I only had a short chat with her because she says she’s really tired and needed to sleep.

James : Ok… you sure you’re ok ? … you seemed really tired….

Shirley : I’m fine….don’t worry…..


I nodded my head and watch her cuddle up in the blanket before dropping off to a deep sleep even though her hair is still pretty wet.


I waited for a good hour when I could hear some light snoring before getting out of bed quietly.


I went to her phone that was charging on the stand and unlocked it.

Immediately I went to her wasapp application and called it up.


My heart dropped to the floor when I saw a name call Nathan.

It broke into a few pieces when I saw snippets of the conversation they had.

I was shaking as I scrolled through the conversation on the phone.


I took mine and began to take photos of it.

I don’t know what I was doing but I knew if I don’t record this, she will delete them away first thing the next day.





I found it hard to breath as I looked at the text on the screen.


What exactly have my wife done ?


I looked at her, exhausted and zoned out on the bed. I wanted to wake her up and find out what exactly is going on.

Who is this guy on the phone and what did he meant by the messages he sent ?



I continued scrolling down the conversation, my heart wrenching in pain and disgust as I went further.









That was the end of the conversation.

God knows how much more have been deleted before that.


I put the phone back and I went to the kitchen before I dared to breathe.

I sucked in mouthfuls of air.

I’m going to be sick.

What is happening ?

What is my wife thinking ?


I recalled the conversation about the forum and I immediately logged onto a popular sex forum I used to visit before I got married.

I navigated to the part where local freelancers advertise their services and my legs buckled when I saw a new advertisement up.

It was for a new girl

A new girl named Sylvia…






The title of the thread is like one of the many colourful and fancy ones they have in the section of the forum. Fill with emoticons and caps not to forget the graphic description of the girl it is advertising.

My hand was shaking as I tapped the thread to open it.

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**Hornyboys latest recruit** FIRST TIME FRESH BLOOD INNOCENT SYLVIA !! Limited slots **

Name : Sylvia
Age : 25
Race : Local Chinese
Looks : 9.5 ( No joke !! See for yourself !! ) Innocent girl next door !!

Height : 1.65 ( Long and toned legs you can lick and lick )
Weight : 47Kg
Vital stats : 34B – 26 – 34 ( Shapely and good to hug )

Not a smoker . No Tattoos. No fancy coloured hair !!

100% Singaporean girl next door !! ( Can proof with IC )

Dos : FJ, CIM , COB, COF , Painting , Fingering, BJ

Protection strictly required !!

Damage : 700 ( Includes room at 5* hotel ) 1 hour 1 shot
   : 2600 ( Includes room at 5* hotel ) 5 hours Unlimited shots


Accepts Chinese brothers only for now. Please respect her decision.

Rejection fee : $50

For bookings & appointments, please SMS your forum nick, age, race and contact number to 85125***
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Trial FR ( field report )

As the owner of Hornyboys escort, I feel I’m obligated to write this FR for this fucking amazing girl that I managed to recruit.
To maintain the quality of girls I am marketing, you can be sure I try out all the girls prior to listing them up on this forum. I pay them well even for the trial so I know I am giving all my brothers out there the best your money can buy.

Sylvia is definitely the sweet young thing you want to bring home to show your mother over Chinese new year. This is her first time doing this, and she is really shy and inexperienced. Please do guide her along.

Obedient would be an understatement to describe Sylvia. She does exactly what I wanted her to do and she definitely can deliver that innocent, sweet and a little shy experience if you are a sucker for this. I’m not saying she can act, she is really shy.

I found out from her she has only 1 sexual partner before in her life and I’m her 2nd. Being a pimp in this industry, I am usually sceptical about such claims but I fucking tell you this brother. I believe her.

I believe her 100% because I can feel it.

That level of innocence and that soft moan by your ears when I plough my cock inside her pussy. Her cunt is so tight that I think I moan more than her. She’s wet yet her pussy muscles are really strong.

Can really grip onto your cock and don’t let go.

I almost beg for mercy after I cum.

Her breast are firm and bouncy. She has a small mole on a sensual part of her body. Hahah. When you lick it, her that expression, fuck I tell you confirm you shoot all your soldiers out in no time.

When I fuck her in missionary, her hands will subconsciously try to push against my tummy, it’s a bit like trying to stop me from fucking her but I am still doing it.

She will frown and turn away, I grip her wrist and fuck harder.

Her moans make me feel like I am raping her , the feeling is fucking high.

I tried her in doggy as well, she will moan and try to turn back and I hold onto her wrist, so she can expose her breast to me. Then when I fuck her hard, seeing her breast jiggle, that fucking feeling is out of this world.

Overall, I must say, she is currently the best under my stable right now.

She will not be doing this for long. Purely for personal reasons she is not comfortable to share.

Limited slots daily only !!!

1st week on market so it’s purely for regular customers and VIP clients only. Sorry to the rest, you have to get in line if you want a gem like Sylvia.

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The moment I saw the description and stats of the girl. I knew it was my wife.



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Tuesday, 8 May 2018

Big trouble in little india - Preview


This is not a sequel or a prequel to the beast within , it's another story, running along a parallel timeline. You have to read ' the beast within ' for context before starting this piece.



New characters, darker scenes.

Painfully darker......



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Coming in 4th quarter 2018


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15th Feb 2018

9.00pm



Soh : Jim.... is the phone with you ?


I nodded and turn my attention back to the crowd below.


It's the eve of the lunar new year and the bazaar in Chinatown is at full swing.


The post dinner crowd are starting to fill up the already packed streets. Jingles of Chinese new year songs and stall owners hawking their wares filled the air around me.

I could see men shoving free samples of goodies and sweets to anyone passing by their stalls, another was shouting with his hoarse voice that the price of new year goodies just dropped by 50% at his stall.

Tourist and local alike basked in the atmosphere of the festivities.



The smell of barbecued meat drifted towards me as the wind changed direction.

Countless selfie sticks stretched up high above the heads of the crowd to capture that perfect instagram photo.

The young, the old and the curious filled the narrow pathways made worst by the amount of goods and foodstuff available for sale.


I reckon it would probably take me 15 seconds or so to move a single step forward if i was down on the ground level with the crowd.


Leaning against my hotel balcony on the 3rd floor, i had a good view of everything going on beneath me including the make shift stage set up for the countdown later that evening.



The heavy security presence was a painful reminder of the attacks in the country barely a year ago.


There were police officers at every corner, and even the military was roped in for extra security.

There's even a armored vehicle parked a short distance away from the stage. I know for sure there are plainclothes security personnel hiding amongst the crowd.


A barrier was set up in front of the stage, giving it a berth of open space about 20m wide.



4 screens about 15m tall each formed the backdrop of the stage displaying new year greetings with colourful animations of little doggies hopping about.


In just a few hours, we would be welcoming the year of the dog.



Soh : Jim !...


Jim : yeah ?


Soh : get ready....



I checked the time and it's coming to 9.15pm


It's almost time to get to work.


There was a flurry of activity near the stage and the area behind the barriers were packed with audience and visitors. Most of them were there to get a glimpse of their favorite celebrities that would be arriving to host the countdowns.


Games will be played, cash prizes will be given out.It's the new year after all. Sponsors usually go all out to capture a slice of the new year crowd's attention.

I've seen it happen on TV many times.

Answering a simple question would easily net you a few hundred dollars in cash.



A platform about 50m behind the main stage rose up high into the air. Many were expecting fireworks at this years' countdown.



To ward away the bad luck that has befallen this country so they say.


I checked the phone in my hand and waited for it to ring.



I'm in room 308 with Soh.


Rizwan and Nelson is in 304.


Our job for the night, they're all in 306.



My friends and i have been following the 3 Chinese men for a week.



Today is the day we will wrap this up.


The entire 30 room hotel has been booked by the embassy of a neighboring country who is hosting guests from the region. Important investors who will be bringing lots of money into their struggling economy.


So much so that a customised tour of the neighboring region including Singapore was included. You don't need to be a genius to guess that the tour is but a part of the under table package where bribes are being paid and the right palms greased.

No other guest are allowed in the hotel except those of the embassy. They were hosted here to enjoy the celebration before the formal tour of the island begins in a couple of days time.



The only reason why we got the rooms was because prior arrangements have been made with the management that the 2 rooms needed urgent renovation works and they are unfit for occupation.


Security is tight at the entrance with metal detectors and sniffer dogs.


Nothing should go wrong at this hotel with such important guests about.Important guest with money to throw that is.



You'll be mad to even try to sneak a small cutter through the entrance. The rooms we were in were checked twice, all the supposedly needed construction tools were removed from the hotel prior to the guest arrival.

Not even a small nail remained as the place was cleaned out. An ambassador from the neighboring country will be here the next morning to join the guest for breakfast on the 1st day of the Lunar new year.


I have no doubts many 'red packets' would change hands within the premise.



Even in the kitchen, the knives, the ice picks and anything that could be used as a weapon were noted down and checked every hour.


There were guards at all the exits on the ground floor. The paranoia is real.

The faithful incident changed everyone's views towards security.
 


1 floor up, the heavy security presence gave way to a oasis of calm and the floor was reserved exclusively for guests.



The 4 of us came in as staff of the hotel. We are dressed the part too, complete with uniforms and a housekeeping cart filled to the brim with towels and toiletries. We were assigned to level 3 as part of the service team.

We were to be stationed in the laundry holding room at all times in case the VIP guest needs anything from a clean towel to an extra bottle of water.


Arrangements were made with the actual staff in charge. A old uncle in his fifties.

He's been paid well to keep his mouth shut and to attend to any of the guest as we got about our work.

I didn't even know his name and he didn't ask for mine.

All he did was hand over the prepared housekeeping trolley and i pushed it into the room we were in and shut the door behind us.




I looked at the spare housekeeping trolley that was assigned to me and my eyes drifted to a particular compartment. I was to deliver something to someone.

A package.


No, sorry to disappoint, but there isn't any guns for Hollywood style assassinations. This is a country with strict controls over firearms.


There are only toiletries on the cart and a brown paper bag.

A brown paper bag that i'm suppose to hand it over to someone i have never met before.



It's about A3 in size, feels padded with bubble wrap and not really heavy.



I don't know the specifics of the job but i'm clear what was required of us.


Handover the paper bag, then wait for instructions from the guy we gave it to. One thing i know for sure, the 3 Chinese man will not make it out of this hotel that night.

Once the job is done, Soh, Nelson and i will impersonate the 3 chinese man to get on with the rest of the so call program and tour so no one is missing from the group.




The noise from the crowd grew a notch before cheers rang out from the streets.


Under heavy security escort, our prime minister walked up to the stage where a rostrum was waiting.



The puzzled public grew euphoric, the cheers got louder. People started clapping. Wellie Chin, our Prime minister took the stage much to the surprise of the gathering crowds.


No one expected the prime minister to be here.


If the cheers of support were a indication of his popularity, then the spontaneous eruption of the crowd chanting his name reaffirmed the country's faith in him leading us out of this mess.



I checked my phone again before turning my attention back to the stage.


It took several moments before the crowds calmed down enough for the PM to speak.



The screens behind the stage no longer displayed greetings, instead they showed the best view the cameras could get of the popular politician.





PM : Good evening Singapore...

The past few months has been particularly challenging for many of us.

I still feel the pain of the needless lost of human lives over the attack, and i'm sure for many of us, the wounds are still raw.

Time will heal all wounds, this is something we all know.............. we also know that a wound............. would leave a scar.

That scar will be a painful reminder for all of us....................to never let our guard down again.

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It was a humbling moment as the street grew quieter. I could see stall holders and hawkers who were blasting their music before now turning them off.

The hustle and bustle grind to a halt. Never before have the streets of chinatown descend into such a eerie silence.

Not on the eve of the Lunar new year.


More and more people gathered, eager for a view of the stage and the minister.



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PM : It will take a while for the country to walk out of the shadows but i assure you, we shall do it together.

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Wellie took a deep breath and i could see he went on, with obvious difficulty holding back his emotions.

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PM : Among the activities that will take place these few days, the reunion dinner is the one many families would hold dear. It's the Lunar new year, a tradition for many of us.

The simple act of having your family and love ones around you, safe, warm and with food on the table is a luxury we have taken for granted over the years.

Tonight, many of these tables will be filled instead by empty seats.........................No matter how sumptuous the fare, ...................or how tasty the delicacies prepared,...................... they would not taste as good without the laughter of your love ones beside you.................... 

For some of us tonight, the dinner would also be a painful reminder of our loss.............



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At this point, it felt as if life at the bustling Chinatown had come to a stop.

The silence was deafening.

Everyone stood still, their undivided attention focused entirely on Wellie Chin.



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PM : More than 70 years ago,.............. on this day.............., the Japanese invaded the island on the 1st day of lunar new year.............

We learned about this in our textbooks, we watched it on documentaries, we can see some of the exhibits in our museum...........

You must be wondering why am i bringing up the history of our country in this New year message.

You must also be wondering why would i even deliver a somber one when it's suppose to be a happy occasion.


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There was a few seconds pause as the PM took a sip of water from the rostrum before turning back to face the crowd and cameras.



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PM : I'll answer that in due course. ..... As a politician..... as your prime minister, all of you have placed your trust in me to make rational decisions no matter how difficult they may be.............. i have been questioned countless times by the public and the families of the victims from the attacks..... why........WHY have we done nothing....... why ?



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Murmurs started to come from the crowd as more and more hands shot up with their camera phones pointed at the stage.

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PM : My answer has always been the same, we are working on it...... we are working on it..... we are always.... working on it.....


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It was at this point someone from the crowd shouted.


" HOW ! " ..... " TELL US..... HOW!!!! "


That sparked off a shouting frenzy and emotions started to get a little heated.



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Wellie smiled.

It was a simple and sly smile, one that fooled many of his political opponents.


A smile that speaks volume, yet reveals nothing.



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PM : How indeed........ how indeed.....


Wellie's smile never left his face as he started walking backwards from the crowd.


As he walked, his eyes scanned the floor in front of him, nodding ever slightly as if he knew something all of us don't.


PM : How indeed.....


Without a formal goodbye, Wellie turned and started down the steps off the stage much to the bewilderment of the crowd.





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The screens behind the stage went dark before the 1st one displayed a jerky aerial view of a cluster of dwellings located in the middle of what seemed like a plantation. The bright specks of lights coming from the dull black and white video feed was lit up by dozens more smaller specks that have already surrounded the target.


As if right on que, a squadron of fighter jets roared across the night skies. The crowd turned and craned their necks trying to catch a glimpse, but it was near impossible to see them.


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The 2nd screen came on without warning, and the crowd gasped as the screen glowed green with the faces of heavily armed men gathering at the edge of a forest clearing.

I broke into a smile as i saw the unmistakable size of Boon in the background before the camera settled on James.


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The 3rd screen drew more gasps and shouts from the crowd as a drone fed black and white images of a dozen assault boats slicing across the calm waters before landing on the beach.



It all happened at once.


Gasps of amazement gave way to cheers as the screen lit up wildly.


Bright balls of lights appeared on screen like a angry flare as our men opened up and advanced on the positions of the camps.


I clenched my fist as i thought about Eric, savouring the moment James and his men kicked down the door of a terrace house across the border.


It was an operation that took months to plan with our neighbours across the causeway. The attack on the schools infuriated both Singapore and Malaysia.



We spent months gathering information, Soh and the rest of us travelled to multiple spots disguised as merchants, traders, even going so far as to work in a rubber plantation to gather the information required.


Yes, we are a part of this.

We dug the worms out of their holes, uncovering a intricate network of extremists and the people who are financing them.

From couriers, to the businessmen that bankroll the attacks, we hunted them down.


I made friends and had meals with men that I would not hesitate to kill right there and then on the spot. It took everything I had to hold it in and keep on smiling.

Seeing everything that is happening on screen now is all worth it.





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The 4th screen came on, showing something closer to home.

A lot closer.


The large screen subdivided itself into 8 squares zooming into 8 different spots in the gathered crowd. You can clearly see the stage and the gathering crowd on the screen.

An eerie red square appeared around the faces of 8 men who for a brief moment looked up in surprise before their expressions betrayed their fear upon realising what was happening.

That they were already marked and their game is up.
Before they could react, men, women who were blended into the crowd beside them quickly brought them down. The commotion sent people scrambling in different directions and the barriers in front of the stage were removed, opening up additional exits for the dispersing crowd.


Many scrambled for safety, yet many more remained on the ground, glued to the screens. Eager and hungry to see the payback the country has been lusting for.

I caught a glimpse of some of the men arrested on screen.

A couple of them had sharpened stakes and knives wrestled from their hands.


A black bag was unceremoniously thrown over their head before they were dragged kicking like animals heading to a slaughter out from the area. 



All 4 screens went dark before merging into one giant display.



The 4 screens began to show the series of political attacks both local and abroad on the current administration. When you are down on your knees, you can be sure the vultures are circling.

The laws of nature apply no matter who you are.


When you are weak and ripe for the picking, the predators will come.

The scavengers will come.

They will come for you, trying to shape your opinion, to influence your thoughts, to generate doubt.



Analysts , observers, so called experts living a few thousand kilometres away appeared on the screen in succession. Politicians, dissidents, exiled individuals, business owners everyone you can possibly fucking imagine appear on the screen one after another questioning us.


Questioning the country.


Questioning the leadership


Questioning the citizens



Questioning how ...................... the fuck....................will we survive ................this.....



How ?


How will we defend this island of ours ?


How ?


How can we fight against an enemy hidden among us ?


How ?


How can such a small fucking country survive a threat of such scale ?



How ?


How will this be done ?


How far are we really willing to go to ensure our way of life is not threatened by the ideals of a few individual ?


How far would you go to make sure your kids can run free and safe by the playground ?


How much are you willing to sacrifice ?


How the fuck………. really……



How the fuck are we going to do this ?



The sequences did not happen by chance. It has been carefully edited by the PM's team as part of a offensive campaign against the people who would see us fall.

Every piece on the chessboard is falling in place that night.


Backed with the right soundtrack, the video clip was edited by a Hollywood director to evoke the right emotions from the viewers. It is clear to many of us that you no longer fight a war with conventional weapons.

You need to win the hearts and minds of people. The new media is the new front.




As the clip rolled towards it's climax of a hundred fuckers asking us 'how' when all they really wanted was to see us fall on our knees, the screen went dark amidst the fading screams on the streets as the chaos slowly came under control.



The PM's face appeared again, this time round, he is not in his usual collared shirt and pants. He was dressed in full tactical gear as he answered the question everyone has been asking.



He did not repeat the question.


He did not need to read from a script.


He did not need any prompt from his aide.


He did not even need to think


You could tell he said it immediately when the camera came on live.


It was a soft yet strong reply. You could hear the steadiness in his voice and the conviction he had in his reply.



PM : With my life....


The drone camera zoomed out to show a pre-recorded sequence of the PM leading a section of men as they entered a compound somewhere near a shipyard before turning black.


Right on que, the screen started flashing a succession of answers and replies.


Replies and answers from the true sons and daughters of Singapore.



A father holding his daughter's urn.


A mother holding her son with only one hand.


A husband, eyes red with a photo of his wife.


A wife holding the beret of her late husband.


An old man on clutches wearing his Temesak green uniform


A dog handler with the collar of his best friend.



Paramedics, doctors, teachers, hawkers, officers from the home team, right down to the service men and women who has dedicated their lives to the country.


Everyone of them answered the questions in the same way.



" With my life "



As the drumbeat of the sound track grew in intensity, the screen went dark right on que, You could hear the crowd and anyone watching that live broadcast erupt in cheers in the same manner when the country won it's first Olympic medal.

The shouts came not only from the gathered crowds that new year eve.


You could hear and feel the pent up anger and frustration of a nation in mourning for the past year. The nearby HDB blocks exploded with cheers and shouts, neighbours leaving their homes and coming out to the corridors.



Within less than 3 minutes everything was over.


Soh broke the trance i was in when i heard him muttered it softly under his breath.



Soh : with my life… 





My phone started ringing and i quickly answered.


It was my contact.


He's here.


Jim : Hello...


Contact : I'm heading up to level 3...



The voice.



It's not a he.


It's a she




Jim : i'll be waiting....


All along i thought it would be a man.


This has to be a job for a man isn't it ?



I took the package and told Soh i'm heading out to the lift lobby.




When the lift door chimed open, all the air was sucked out of my lungs as i came face to face with the woman i spoke with.


She had shoulder length hair black that fell effortlessly on her slim and toned shoulders. She wore a sleeveless black dress that hugged so tightly onto her body that it hid nothing from my imagination.

Her legs, her calves, and that perky butt could only mean hours of hard work inside a gym and that pair of sexy killer heels that is black with shimmering glitters of silver sent blood rushing to my groin.



Her features, her looks, it's really hard to describe.


She's really pretty but there is nothing special about her features. It's like she can blend into a crowd easily.


Before i could get over my stupor she was already in front of me.



Contact : Jim ?


I nodded and handed her the package ....


She opened it in front of me.



My jaws dropped when i saw what was inside that bubble wrap.



A fish.



Yes a fucking fish.


Not just any fish.



It's a hard Japanese Katsuo, or the fermented Bonito fish. The same fish that you shave and add it onto your tako balls.



Only in this instance, it's a solid piece, rock hard and shaped into a claw like blade with it's ends wrapped with leather.



My contact handed the bubble wrap and the bag back to me before hiding the fish in her tote bag.


She brushed back her hair and walked confidently towards room 306.


I stepped back into the recessed area of a doorway and watched as she rang the bell.


The door opened and i could hear the girl speak.




Contact : Oh..... Mr Yoshi San ??



The chinese man who answered the door immediately said they did not call for a girl.


The girl smiled, made a show of checking the room number and her phone again before apologising and adjusting her already short dress.


Another of the chinese man appeared and gestured for the girl to head into their room.



Contact : oh... no no...sorry... i'm booked by Mr Yoshi.....


Ignoring her pleas, the 2nd man laughed and pulled her into the room with him despite her innocent pleas not to.



The door closed with a thud and everything was quiet.


I hesitated for a brief moment before walking towards the room.




I could hear something.


Something was happening.



Something heavy fell on the floor.



Someone was shoved against the wall several times.


Furnitures were being moved and dragged around.



The wall slamming sounded a few more times.


If the rooms on either side were occupied, the occupants would surely lodge a complaint.




Then it was all quiet.


My heart was beating really fast as i opened the door and gestured for Soh to come out.



Jim : It's a girl... she went in...


Soh : huh ? ... a girl ?? ... fuck.... you serious ??


Jim : ya... i don't know if she's ok.....


Soh : A girl ? are you fucking kidding me ?



Jim : Yeah…

Soh : The package ??.... what is in it ??


Jim : A fish…


I watched as Soh’s jaws dropped a good 2 inches as he asked me to call James.


Soh : Call James… ask him what the fuck do we do ??


Jim : Call him for what ?? .. he’s in the middle of the fucking jungle…. There’s nothing he can do….


Soh : Then how ? ? …. Who is the point of contact for this job ??


Jim : It was supposed to be James but ever since he passed me this phone, we were just taking instructions from someone I don’t know for the past few days….


Soh and I were deliberating whether to break down the door when my phone buzzed.


It was her.

The girl.


Soh : Who is it ?


Jim : The girl…. She… she asked us to keep our voices down in the corridor….



Soh ; What the fuck….


Jim : ok.. ok… at least we know she’s fine….



We waited another 10 mintues before the door opened and we entered the room.






The girl stood by the door, still dressed in her high heels and tight black dress but her hair was wet. She looked like she just had a shower.



Jim : Are you ok ??


Contact : I'm fine.... come in…



Upon entering, Soh and i saw the 3 bodies slumped at 3 different spots with their throats slit.


Contact : You and your team will assume their identity for the rest of the tour .... give this to the kitchen... they'll know what to do....


She handed the hardened piece of fish back to me.



Jim : What do we do with them ??


Contact : get them into the bathroom….. a team will be here to handle it when you leave tomorrow…


I looked at the girl in amazement as she looked like she had hardly a scratch on her.


My eyes drifted to the bed and saw that was not true.


The dress and lingerie she arrived in were ripped and covered in blood on the bed. One of her high heels is broken.


Yet she still looked the same as when she arrived.


She must have a set of spare clothes in her bag including a new pair of heels.



Contact : Here….


She handed a package to us and I opened it to see forged passports with our faces in it. That should settle the identification part for our so call tour the next few days.


I watched the girl checked herself in the mirror, brushed back her hair before calmly nodding at Soh and me as she opened the door and stepped out.



For a good 30 seconds, Soh and I just stared at the door.


When we finally turned to look at each other, Soh was the one that spoke first.



Soh : Who the fuck…. Is ….she ???



I looked at the 3 men who helped financed the attack on the childcare centres a year ago lying lifeless on the floor a few feet away before looking back up at Soh.



Jim : well......whoever she is….......... I’m sure when the time comes........she will have a hell of a story to tell…….








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Coming soon...... 4th quarter 2018




All ok

Thank you to all for checking in with me via mail and messaging apps.

I'm ok.


Sorry for the long break.

Work is pretty crazy and i'm also covering for a colleague who needed some time off.

He's going through a pretty rough patch in life at the moment.



His wife cheated on him and they're going though the paperwork for separation. They have kids too, and the really power part is the wife says she is ok to let my colleague have them. She just wants to move on and live the life she really wants.

This has to be one of the most powerful local drama type that i've encountered personally.


Found out about this from my colleague over lunch one day.

He broke down in front of me and fuck man i don't know what to do or say.




Anyway, only our boss and me are aware of his situation. He's in the middle of his 3 month break right now and i'm covering for his project. There's a bit of fire fighting to go though but thankfully it's not as bad as i imagined it to be.



All is good on my end, just pretty tired and i'm working saturdays as well. Not that i want to but it's the only time i can sit down and clear some of the administrative work in peace.


I'm still working on my stories for the blog.


I'm a bit late with my scheduled released for some works in the pipeline but i will be catching up with it.

There will be few interesting pieces coming soon and i'm refining the preview for my next full length work.



I'm spending quite a bit of time of that, i want it to be good. Better than 'the beast within'



Better, darker and more painful.



Check back soon. Will wrap up 'The prison i'm in' this couple of days.


Cheers


James